life is so.. 

alright the sporatic diseased heartbeat that is my existance skiped a few beats but, continues, yes she continues. today an elderly asian women carrying a folded box and lightly aiding her slow paced walk with two crutches in one hand. her face was smudged with dirt, yet her dignaty not smudged. i followed her a few blocks just to see where she was going. she she laid her box down and made a seat and began to read one of those free at the door of the pizzaria apartment books. i went to an atm and got out some cash and gave her 20$.  

i look to the ground when i want to tell you i love you. i want it to open up and swallow me down into the molten core of earth. things i wouldnt do i did fueled by you. things i couldn't now i could. there is yet more to write in this story of ours. lets consider this a plot twist. ultimately its goodness i'd want to bring.  

humanity at its finest. ungreatful love, dont pay attention and it will go away. you want everything you want, but its not fair its not right. your life gets only better you use it. it only makes sense in your wonderland, non sense. alice walk on the ceiling and you'll find yourself all alone. things you want, things that have not happened, green eyes consume you. your fire life burns but clouds of smokey hurt follow. the time line of circumstance always gets the best of us all.